Into The Potter's Hands

IT'S ALL ABT JESUS

2008-12-02T23:31:00.004+08:00

GB annual camp is over! I really want to thank God so so so so much for this awesome & beautiful camp tt He has given us:) I thank God for his presence tt is with us EVERY SINGLE DAY, EVERY SINGLE MIN & of course everywhere we were! This is the very very very first time since soooooooooooooo long when I'm in sec 1 that the Lord's presence filled my Life wherever I go!:D I LOVE YOU JESUS! I couldn't express how much you mean to me in my Life..

Though during the camp I am really "stretched out", helping with the logistics of the camp & also for the dance workshop and many more. The Lord has indeed granted me Strength! I've tasted of His goodness & faithfulness for us! God HOLD the rain! In our plans, we wanted to bring the girls for a night walk to east coast. We woke up, and some officers checked the weather forecast & it said that there will be gusted wind, rain and thunderstorm. We prayed & set out in Faith! Actually, I did have faith but not as much though.. God is great!! He Hold the rain, & the most amazing thing was that, we saw sunrise! the FULL WHOLE ROUND BEAUTIFUL ORANGE BIG SUN!:D God's beautiful creation! Indeed with man all things are impossible but with all God all things are possible!:D

I just can't thank God enough for all that he has done for me!:) I love the girls & I love God too!:)

Without the Lord, I am incomplete but with Him, my Life is made complete!

" Draw me nearer to you
Nearer to you
Fill my Life with your presence
The way you want to
Till my soul is ablaze
Each and everyday
Draw me nearer
And nearer to you "

Dannnncceee

2008-11-26T22:57:00.003+08:00

On monday, it's the last day of hiphop class with Mr Royston! haha really enjoyed his class & I've learned alot in his class too!:) haha we find him so funny taking photo with us! Enjoyed the fellowship & company from everyone too!:D

God is good, all the time & All the time, God is good! I can't wait for friday to come! Though we are really tired in planning & preparing but I am really excited for this annual camp:) God will birth forth something new in the company & make it whole!:)

Fix my eyes on the Lord

2008-11-21T01:25:00.004+08:00

There's a yearning to learn Ballet:) Lyrical dance is really nice. Actually at first I thought I'm only able to fast songs but came to realise that slow songs I'm able to do too. Though not very well, but I'm willing to learn everything from the basics:) Grace needs to be diligent!

I thank God for today! For drill today with the girls, they are really good! Hope they will remember what I said & practice. Church dance was great too! I thank God for being with me in that place, he has seen me through.. Without him, I don't think I'm able to remember the moves & able to do it too. PRAISE GOD!:D

Leaders' Retreat & Fun time tgt!

2008-10-29T18:50:00.007+08:00

I love all of their companies:D God is good in our midst too! I've learned a lot through the leaders' retreat, I have to let go & surrender!

"The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalm 27:1

Shooo ALL negativism in my thoughts & mind!!

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." Phillipians 4:8

LISTEN

2008-10-13T23:34:00.002+08:00

These are photos taken during gkids ytd:) I'm starting to miss them all too!

Dance was great today! learned how to isolate my body parts but still not able to do it, well I have to practice! Really thank God, tt it is Him whom help me through school & dance today. Without him, I think I will really be feeling pretty much downcast.

I'm learning to listen to the voice of God these few days, [bathing, on my way to school, bus/mrt, and wherever I am] I'm always trying to hear from the Lord, is there anything he wants to speak to me or tell me. Really don't know whether is me or God at times. haha cause some times some thoughts are like me trying to create it out:/ ?? I really don't know..

UPDATE TIME

2008-10-12T21:01:00.005+08:00

I'm really trying to update update update! haha people, grace is really trying.. haha well this few photos are taken some time ago at yvonee's house:D

I had SOL ytd! & it was totally great! The pastor talked abt the old self & new nature, the need of REPENTANCE, and the one tt struck me more is The BIBLE! Every single word in the bible is chosen by God, how amazing:D! It is the Truth & it is the word of the Living God. It motivates me to read even more of the bible, even if I can't read the whole bible, at least knowing the overview of everything would be good. I'm going to follow the timetable tt the pastor gave out ytd:)

Gkids open house today! It was refreshing:) I didn't know tt I am able to wake up so early to go. Really thank God for his Energy, if not I would really feel so so so so tired to get out of my bed. Kids are really adorable & simple, hahahah to know tt I actually am them when I am young! ok, I really have the desire in my heart to be still & listen to God to what he wants to speak to me:)

It only takes a spark, to get the fire going! & soon all those around, can warm up in it's glowing. That's how it is with God's love, once you experience it. You'll spread his love, to everyone. You want, yes I want, to pass it on.. (pass it on.... pass it on....)

God is Great!

2008-09-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

Dance was really great today!:D haha I really sweat it out & totally drenched with sweat. I can feel my muscle aching & pulling me everywhere:/ It's quite tiring but it was great, fun & FUN! haha many of us joined tgt! yvonee, reena, zarraphina, ruixiang, kelly & me(: with them ard, feels great!

God is good too! Blessing us with good instructor, Royston! *CLAP CLAP* haha he is really patient, good & drama! I thank God for him:) I need to practice more too cause practice makes perfect:D

May every move i make, I make in You Lord:)

Everyone of us Married!

2008-09-15T21:04:00.003+08:00

hahah i got the above pic from yvonee's blog! & i think i look really HILARIOUS!:/haha & kelly's one is funny too! Well, I really cant imagine the day where I'm getting married! nononono, i shouldn't think so far because I have yet to find a boyfriend yet. hah!

Oh! What if all of us get married on the SAME DAY! wooooo:D Amazing! haha I'm just day-dreaming right now. I pray I pray I pray tt God will bless me with someone right:D lol I'm 20 yrs old(seems quite old compared to many ard me). Well, I'm not in a hurry but will choose to wait for God to bless me:)

Lord, make me whole:)

2008-09-10T21:15:00.003+08:00

I want to be a new grace, a new me!:D

to be a humble grace
to be a loving grace
to be a caring grace
to be a giving grace
to be a understanding grace

To be who God wants me to be:) I want to be more & more like Jesus. Jesus is special! What makes him so special? He has something where everyone doesn't have. Help me & teach me Lord to know more about who you truly are! Though a lot of times I've failed in many ways before you but I want to be a different me:)

Why should I be fearful? I don't like that feeling of fear that pulls me down whenever I want to do something for God. And ended up, i don't dare to speak & share abt anything because I fear. haha deep down in me, I fear. I am in the process of learning too:) How to be God conscious & not self conscious.

It's hard but I will try:)

Everything I have, for your Kingdom's cause

2008-08-27T21:01:00.007+08:00

A great meeting with Liwen tgt with the rest for lunch before school!(: And our dear Liwen is flying to China soon.. Will surely miss you very much! Must take care of yourself there too!

My Father, my Hero - sunday's sermon. It was really a heart stirring message last sunday. The message was indeed one from God, I do struggle. Really wish to have someone like a father to let me hug on. Well, I know that man may fail me in many ways and maybe also my earthly father but my Father in heaven will not & He loves me really dearly more than anything else!:)

School was really great too! Though the amount of readings are increasing rapidly, but so far I'm enjoying it & it's exciting to be a teacher in near future. I thank God for seeing me through all my assignments. Most imptly, today's group presentation where we have to pretend our whole class is primary 5 kids & teach:) Our group did well, I'm really sure it's not by myself but with God that it is well-ly done:D

Thank you Reena!:D for everything! You brought warm to me! I really thank God for you!Yvonee too:) I really find it awesome to talk to you always, sharing and everything that always build me up too! Seeing how great is our God working in our lives & also in many areas ard us:)

God is my Father

2008-08-13T21:11:00.003+08:00

School in NIE was really awesome! Though it's quite tough in many ways but I still find it easier than poly life. Maybe not so much of assignments coming in yet. haha but God has been good:) He is my Jehovah Nissi, the Lord is my Banner, for I already have Victories over my studies because of what the Lord has done for me:)

Well, Life is good with God by my side!

I have to stop being emo & moody some times! That is what I am to Conquer! haha I admit that I do think alot alot. Thinking too much is not good for me at all.. I can think till really very very very very far & beyond what the truth lies before me is:) That's grace but I have set my heart to learn to not think so much in Life!

There are many things out there for me to learn too, and I want to be a better person, a person more and more like Christ:)

I will lift my hands to the King

2008-07-31T19:41:00.002+08:00

God is good all the time!
& All the time God is good!

No matter how hard & tough life is, only God will I choose to rely on! God has been good & faithful:) I could never thank God enough in my Life but I know that He is Jehovah Tsidkenu, the Lord is my Righteousness.

I can come to you in boldness & confidence - not based on the things I have done but on what you have done on the Cross. Because You are my righteousness, I do not need to be guilty and condemned in Your presence knowing that the Blood of Jesus has cleansed me and my sins are forgiven. Daily the blessings of Abraham are mine. Because You are Jehovah Tsidkenu, I have victory each day over bad habits and sin and the curse of poverty over my life has been broken. I walk in victory and in newness of life, and I not only enjoy hope but I can release hope to people around me. Amen:)

Lord, help me to humble myself..

Teach me your ways

2008-06-13T19:42:00.005+08:00

Acts 20:35

"In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'"

When I was doing my quiet time, I was actually reading another verse in Acts but suddenly when my hands are off the bible, it flipped to another page showing me this verse. As I was reading this verse, it speaks to me just as i was seeking for an answer but didn't know what it is.

"Grace, it is more blessed to give than to receive..."

I feel really tired because I felt that I have been giving a lot through all these years of my Life. I gave almost all that I have to all that is around me. But when I am in China, I forgot all about giving.. I only think about receiving and taking, becoming like more and more self-centered rather than getting myself to do things beyond how I feel.

The more I took and received, makes me feel more and more restless & listless in doing many things. The Lord reminded me that I could only find JOY in giving & not just receiving.

Melancholy

2008-06-12T11:24:00.002+08:00

Actually I'm really looking forward to come back to Singapore but now..... I'm not. In fact, I don't know what should I do when I come back.

Happy? Sad?

It really breaks me apart right now.

Beautiful pictures

2008-06-10T20:16:00.004+08:00

I'm quite bored. So went to disturb Joycelyn:/ haha and we were having fun editing these pictures above with photoshop! haha we were laughing our jaws out while editing them! haha hope you too enjoyed laughing at these pictures:D

Hangzhou has been raining non-stop for 3 whole days already. And it's starting to flood too.. If the rain doesn't stop, I'm sure it would be worst than now. Thank you Jianwei for your encouragements:) I trust that God has kept me safe in his hands. I will be back and we will start our planning for cheer leading too!:D Really very excited to come back.. haha

God is with me

2008-06-09T15:41:00.007+08:00

Went to Shao Xin, this is our tour guide:)

14 May - packing boxes ready to mail back to singapore:)

I mailed back 2 big boxes back to Singapore:) haha or else my lugguge will be overweight! And I went to one of the china's best primary school with the school. The kids there are really good! Their standard of Chinese really cannot be compared with us in Singapore. I was really amazed but their standards and the things that they learned too! haha

27 more days and I will be back:D Really very excited! Next sunday is the start of my exams too:/ But very soon it will be over in an blink of my eye!

It's raining heavily now.. The weather nowadays are quite weird, it should be summer and the weather are much cooling due to the serious earthquake in Sichuan that changes the weather. I want to thank God for this too. It may not seem to be a good sign but he cools down the weather for us:)

He makes all things beautiful in His time:)

Supermarket Day

2008-06-05T20:12:00.006+08:00

We went out to O Shang - a big supermarket like Giant in Singapore:) We have being there quite a few times but this time round I decided to bring my camera to take some photos so that I can blog and share with you all:) haha went to buy toilet papers, tidbits, stationery, cup noddles, tissue papers and many more! We bought quite a lot of things.. haha since 1 June, china will not be protecting you with plastic bags when you buy things. It's recycle month? or maybe a few months, not sure about it. We had to bring shopping bags wherever we go:)

Feeling quite tired now after all the walking round, buying things. I had lesson tml too. I want to thank God that I'm clearing most of my assignments here. Soon exams... Soon will be right back in Changi Airport!:D Can you imagine, everyday I will imagine the day where I am back in Singapore, seeing all of you, back to a familiar place after 4 and a half months. Time past real fast:)

God Loves You!
I Miss You all very very much too!

SMILE because no matter how hard Life is, God promise to be there for you:)

Psalm 42

2008-06-03T21:12:00.003+08:00

The Lord reminded me in Psalm 42:

1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.

2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?

3 My tears have been my food day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.

5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my saviour and my God.

Psalm 42 revealed the real me. I have been thinking what kind of person am I? Just like what verse 4 says, it says how I used to be. I used to be really strong and on fire for God, and building up my cell group & building up myself too. But as the time goes by, I lost the fire and my cell group started to break apart. And I started to rebuild myself and rebuild a new cell group too. As I read Psalm 42, it spoke right to me. All along, I missed the point where God is, where the center of my Life is at.

It matters to me a lot about things that are outside and not within me at all. About how do I present myself in front of people, and not wanting to let others see my flaws and ugly side of me. How people treat me, talk to me and all... I am really disturbed by many things that are outside of me but I did not search deeper for God. All along in China, I have been relying on myself knowing that I can do it and I can overcome it.

God taught me something new, something afresh, something that I have been searching for.. I did not fix my eyes in God and I did not place my hopes in God but on other things around me. When I placed my hopes on something, more disappointment will I get when I fail to see what I expected it to be.

But by fixing my eyes & placing my hopes in Him Alone, will I find rest. And no disappointment in God. Though Life still goes on and things happening to me may not be pleasant but God I pray that you will help me to fix my eyes on you.

5 more weeks

2008-06-03T18:24:00.003+08:00

34 more days to go! And I am counting down to coming back to Singapore:) Indeed Singapore is my homeland, it is where I belong. Oh... I wanted to thank all who have came to send me off at the airport the other day when I'm coming china:D I guess it is a little too late but i still want to thank you all! And also to those who can't make it, but your wishes, messages(sms) and everything! really touches my heart:)And everyone who has bought things for me for this trip! Also letters, cards, small pillow, powerpoint slides with photos, massager, t-shirt, food, chocolates and many more!:) Thank you all!

The weather in China is getting hotter and hotter each day cause now is already Summer! The weather seems really hot and dry, just a 5 to 10 mins walk will make me sweat a lot but staying indoor in hostel is so much cooler and nice:D I had lesson as usual in class today, then went out to packet dinner home to eat. The days are nearing to my end of semester exam which is on the 22 June till 30 June. After that I will be free from stress! Do keep me in your prayers too:)

God is good:) giving me time to be able to talk to one of my friend about Christianity. She is also a Christian, and we encouraged each other on with our walk with God. And good news! Christianity are actually not as enclosed as what I thought it would be in China. Teachers talked a lot on Christianity too! In our studies about China's history and all:) I believe that as time goes by, China will know and accept that Jesus is Lord over their hearts & their land:) Amen!

I'm in China

2008-05-14T21:44:00.010+08:00

Sorry for updating so late:/ haha cause network here in China is quite slow so uploading photos will take a very long time so was slightly troublesome. Through the past 3 months have been a new experience for me, living in a different environment and studying in university too! But I want to thank God, for he is Good(: He has sustained me through all this while & His hands are upon me keeping me safe.

The photos above are photos from my normal day life, shanghai, Xi An, Shao Xin and more! Some of the places where the teachers brought us to. Will bring back lots of photos to let you all see too:D I really miss all of you really badly! haha but I'm coming back real soon, 1 month & 1 week more to go! And hope you guys are doing well in Singapore too:D See you real soon ya! I miss going fot GB, teaching drill, the FOOD in singapore(yummy yum yum!), church, pastor khong:), all of YOU, MRT in singapore, my home, and many many many more!

The Joy of the Lord shall be my strength! And I trust in the name of the Lord:D

O Lord, your word has comforted my soul

2008-01-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Psalm 3

A psalm of David. When he fled from his son Absalom.

1 O LORD, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!

2 Many are saying of me,
"God will not deliver him."
Selah

3 But you are a shield around me, O LORD;
you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.

4 To the LORD I cry aloud,
and he answers me from his holy hill. Selah

5 I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me.

6 I will not fear the tens of thousands
drawn up against me on every side.

7 Arise, O LORD!
Deliver me, O my God!
Strike all my enemies on the jaw;
break the teeth of the wicked.

8 From the LORD comes deliverance.
May your blessing be on your people.
Selah

Indeed, I will not fear anything! Because my God will deliver me from the hands of the enemies!

COUNTDOWN PARTY'07

2008-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! Countdown Party'o7 at Church was great!:) Having so much fun counting down to a brand new year 2008! A year of Sabbath! The celebrities above are from our church, I didn't know until then.

A psalm a day draws me nearer to God! And I want to dance before his throne with all that I have every single day of my life!:)

I'm so angry now! I mean I just want to express how I feel. I don't understand why someone is so rude towards me when I have done nothing to provoke him. Weird! Anyway, I called but not finding you. It makes me feel so angry. Imagine you wanted to call your friend, but someone picks up and talked to you in a very rude way. Well, forgive! I don't like people treating me this way, and it's not the first time that you are doing this.

Give thanks still! God is always good!:)

Christmas Christmas!

2007-12-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

We had our gift exchange today after service!:) haha I got the Ranger Mask from Kaiping! Thanks so much for that huh! lol well, it's really fun exchanging surprising gifts! Don't you think so? hahahahah Christmas is always full of so much joy & laughter every season!:D

Service was great too! Jesus did so much for me! Indeed, my God is a GREAT GOD! He left his heavenly throne, and he choose to walk on earth! To eat & serve us, where could you find such great God who is willing to come down to earth for your sake & my sake. He came not for the righteous but for the sinners.

Lord, make me humble. It's easier to weep with those who weep, but it's difficult to rejoice with those who rejoices. "Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." James 4:10

GOD LOVES YOU

2007-12-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

What is there to worry & be upset about?

Isn't the Lord, your God has provided you with everything that you needed? The birds in the air was well fed & God clothed the lilies of this earth. How much more will he take care of you?

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?" Matthew 6:25-30

Naked I came from my mother's womb, taking nothing with me to the earth. And EVERYTHING that God has given me belongs to God himself. Why should I be sad when I feel lonely, why should I be upset when things came tumbling down?

For I serve a living & Almighty God of the universe! Only in him that I may have Life, & only in him that I may experience the overflowing Joy! There's nothing I should be upset or worry about, because I have God. And that is All that I need in my Life:)

Though I may be swayed by my emotions of feeling down, but i will not give in to my emotions! For I choose to turn my heart & fix my eyes on Jesus!:D No one can steal my Joy away!

AMEN!:D

Are you feeling rather empty or down? Only God can make you whole this day:) Christmas is coming! And Christmas is the birth of Jesus Christ, Son of Man who came to seek & save the lost. And as you celebrate Christmas this year'07, may the Lord bless you too! That you will experience Him afresh! God Loves You, & I love you too!:)

Are you ready for Christmas?

2007-12-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

Drill Retreat was fun! I learnt a lot of things through this year's drill retreat! I felt the Lord's presence so Strong throughout the whole retreat being there with us, guiding & leading all of us:) God has sustain me through my days of serving in GB & in drill com too!

Wooo! Christmas is coming so soon!:D You know something? My Mum asked me about Jesus! That's really amazing! Cause my aunt who is also a christian bought my mum a vcd on the life of Jesus. And my Mum and two brothers watched it!

Before that, I was praying to God to let me have a chance to share with my Mum that Christmas is Jesus's Birthday & I did!

PRAISE GOD!

Though my Mum wasn't really believing! But I believe that they will be saved!:D

I choose to speak Life

2007-11-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

After cell group ytd
On the way home, I felt tongue-tied! I'm serious. hahahah it's really not easy. Many thoughts keep flashing within my mind abt the things that i said & gossip before! I felt so bad suddenly:/

Proverbs 20:19
"A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much"

Proverbs 15:4
"The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit"

I realised today! that I was really careful with my words:/ And listening to the things people were saying. Some are so hurtful:( that crushes the spirit. I need to learn learn learn! I want to choose to speak life into another persons life:) That will encourage & is helpful for building others up.

How can the same lips that I used to Praise God, use to speak unwholesome talks?

Ephesians 4:29
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen"

It is not easy at all! It just comes out so naturally! God, may you tamed my tongue.

Jesus is the WAY!

2007-11-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

On Monday, we celebrated as a class for Edna's(the one holding the cake) birthday:) Happy 19th birthday once again & May the blessings of God be upon you:)

Today's sermon was good!
Direction for the future! Though you may think that my future is already set to be a chinese teacher:/ hah which many people doesn't like chinese at all. Some thing strucks me today is that, if you want to know that this is God's plan for you, you need to know decide to choose God's purpose. That whatever place that God will put and direct me in, i will say "Yes, Lord!" The four points or maybe eight of them shared today, was awesome! Cause I can feel that's the heartbeat of God:) I want to develop a very intimate relationship with God!

And I sing sing sing
For you are the reason
I dance dance dance
You gave me the freedom

I have been eating & not exercising lately! hah
FATS ARE FORMING IN LUMPS! :/

SCHOOL

2007-10-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

Though school reopen means having to get up early & projects/presentations/assignments are coming in real soon! But I want to thank God for giving me lovely friends to be with in school:)

Oh tml had school till 10pm! haha but I thank God that there's no school on Friday! yay:D

Happy! Sha la~ la~

It's so nice to be happy!

Sha la~ la~

Lord, let my Joy be found in you all the days of my life!

And nothing else shall shake me!

NO MORE EMO-ING! I can do it!

At the cross, I bow my knees

2007-10-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

School was great! I thank God for friends:) And most imptly I thank God for giving that passion & strength for this semester to study! Though I am weak in my Chinese but something within me changes, I have the excitement to study! It's really a breakthrough for me:)

Liwen! haha I'm touched by your words today:) When you said that you were smiling to yourself when you read my blog that my relationship with my mum has improved!:D It's heart-warming to hear that cause you care. hah:D Joycelyn & Edna, don't worry abt my sleep talk at night cause it don't happen that often! So please don't push me down the bed if not you will find yourself in the bathroom the very next day! hahahah:)

Lord, may my only Focus be you & nothing else!
Though others may fail me, you will not:)

I'm feeling moody now! haha that's my weakest point!
SHOO SHOO SATAN! AWAY FROM ME!
God, be with me & make me strong in you:)
That's what I desire!

CYCLYING DAY

2007-10-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

Before we set forth for 3 hours of cycling:)

We took pictures alone the way:D

I decided to follow yvonee's pose!:/ haha

Woo! this picture is taken by a handsome guy! hah

Left to right - Me, Yvonee, Lycia

Jun Tian, Fooxin, Eileen & Siewleng

My hair looks like LION! hah

haha they look cute & funny!

Yay! haha a great day out cycling ytd:) hah and having fun taking so much pictures! And I felt so happy cause I cycled for 3 hours! haha I need more exercise!:D hah

Seoul Garden

2007-10-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

Went to eat Seoul garden with Lycia, Juntian, Ruiting, Eileen & Foo Xin:) I ate so much food! And felt so bad to my body! hah I need more more more exercise!:/ haha

We bought a penguin pooh bear for dear ruiting:)

After that Lycia & Eileen went to play bowling. haha it was really funny!:D And I should join them to play next time too! hah and also Juntian, Foo xin & Ruiting! We must play too!:)

Headed home after that:)

I was reading this book "Growing Deep in God" And learn a lot of things through this book too:)

A familiar story was told of a pastor who went to heaven, and was standing in line at the Pearly Gates. Saint Peter was there, allocating the accommodations. Before him was a bus driver, ans Peter said, "Welcome! See that 16-room mansion on the hilltop? It is yours!"

The pastor standing next in line, said to himself,"Wow, if the bus driver has a 16-room mansion on the hilltop, I can't wait for my reward."

He stepped right up to Peter, who said to him, "Ah, you are the pastor. See that little hut in the valley down there? It is yours!"

The pastor was stunned, and he blurted out, "Peter, I don't understand. All these years I gave my life to preaching, and all I get is a little hut? And this bus driver - what did he ever do to deserve a 16-room mansion in heaven?"

Peter solemnly replied, "My dear friend, when you preach, people sleep. But when this bus driver drives, the people pray!"

Well, this story is not a true story but the moral of the story is: The greatest mobilisation in Christianity is prayer mobilisation. Anyone who can mobilise the people of God to pray is doing tremendous thing in the kingdom of God.

I was inspired by the people of God who are committed in Prayers:

Charles Simeon devoted the wee hours of morning from 4am to 8am to God

John Wesley prayed for two hours daily. He thought prayer was his business, more than anything else.

John Fletcher would frequently pray all night with great earnestness. His whole life was a life of prayer.

Martin Luther was a busy but prayerful man. He said, "I have so much business I cannot get on without spending three hours daily in prayer."

Samuel Rutherford, whose piety is deeply rich, rose at 3am daily to meet God in prayer.

Marquis DeRenty a godly nobleman who prayed for 3 hours daily but seemed like he had just prayed for half an hour!

Samuel Chadwick, when he prayed, he expected God to do something. 'I wished I had prayed more,' he wrote towards the end of his life, 'even if I had work less; and from the bottom of my heart, I wish I had prayed better'.

Prayer is like a journey of unhurried walk. It cannot be hurried through but with time and keeping company with God:) It's time for me to rise up in prayers! And hope you will be inspired to pray!:) I pray that God will help me and be my strength!

Wooooo! School is starting for me next week!:D I'm excited cause God is going to excite me with his greatness! And miracles in school!:) GO GO GO GRACE!:D hahha

I Love You

2007-10-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

The wonderful blessing in my life, is Jesus.

I thank God for loving me! He brings me back thinking of how good and faithful he has been in my life through different seasons of my life. He have seen me through the lowest point of my life when I'm broken apart, the times when I ran away from him & the times when I'm lost. And of course when I'm happy:) I really really thank God, my father for always being with me and never leaving me alone. Though at times I may be faithless but he is always Faithful in my life.

Through tears & joy, I will trust in you.

God is indeed good all the time in my life:) Thank you, Jesus for loving me!

Love Language

2007-09-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

Score - Love Language
8 - Words of Affirmation
8 - Quality Time
4 - Receiving of Gifts
6 - Acts of Service
4 - Physical Touch

I got this from yvonee's blog! again!? haha well hope she don't come after me again. And I thank God that we don't have the same score? lol:D

I only want Jesus!

2007-09-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

I think there's something wrong with blogger! haha I cant post photos and all too. Well, I'm thinking of switching to livejournal:)

Life's good with God! And after watching a God tube video, I'm awaken! I don't want to go to Hell. It's really a place of Torments, Suffering, Hopelessness, and Endless! Satan will burn us in FIRE! Well, you cant imagine how terrible it is until you watched it! I now can fully understand the meaning of, Heaven is a wonderful place, filled with glory and grace!:D God grant me peace! I'm so frighten about hell and satan!

All the days of my life let me walk close with you!:)

Will update more when blogger seems ok or I've switched to Livejournal:D haha oh! And GOD REALLY LOVE YOU! Yes! It's YOU who are reading this! -hugs-

Personality Test

2007-09-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

haha I got this website from yvonee's blog! hey von, we have the same personality! :D haha

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous.

At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's" Your Personality Type?

Helper & Joy:)

2007-09-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

Today was great! haha

I accompanied my mum to Vivo city in the afternoon. She bought a new 3G phone and needed to change her sim card to a 3G sim card! haha actually was lazy to go as I'm really tired. haha but it's LOVE cause I'm also afraid that she will be alone and all:) So I shall be good to go with her! hah it's fun being out with Mummy! You know what, we were at the starhub counter and there they placed lots or free starhub sweets! And my mum wanted them and we took quite many of them! Mum says my brother likes them!

After that we went for lunch! She ordered claypot laksa that cost $6.90! But it's really nice! After which we went round walking and shopping for awhile:) There we go! To Candy Empire! I saw this frog shape cadbury chocolate! I want them! actually wanted to pay for myself but my mum was so SWEET that she said she pay for it! Suddenly I felt so loved!:D It's the FIRST time I felt this way! hahaha

After that mum went home and I went to GM:) Kaiping went home early so didn't see her. And Lycia have singspiration practice and left me and germin in the gb room:) Well, we have fun chatting and talking to each other! hah I call her to teach me some steps of her Chinese dance but I cant do any of them! I think I'm lacking of this feel of you know you know. I don't really know how to explain it. heehee

And there I go dancing! I just feel so joyful and happy just dancing around! Even though I look like some kind of retarded and forgotten some steps of the songs that I learnt before but it's ok cause it's just me and God! I just felt so free just now! And dancing to christian songs that I've not learn before:)

I went online ytd to watch the sermon on Gideon - Winning when I don't feel like a Warrior. God spoke right to my heart and I cried. That God always have a better opinion about me! So don't look down on myself. For the past few days, I felt rather disturbed within that I'm not good enough and felt really insecure. Feeling that people care for others more than me, and I'm not that impt. But Pastor Caleb wants us to say this that struck me:

#I want to make people happy and have them like me, but my sense of worth is not dependent on what others think of me. Jesus has already affirmed my value by His willingness to die for me.

#I will not be controlled by what people think, say, or do. Even if they totally reject me, I will survive. God has promised never to reject me or condemn me as long as I keep believing.

God is helping me to overcome my present circumstances:) thank you Lord! I really need God in my life, not just to help me through but to be the Lord of my Life!

Jesus, you are my Lord

2007-09-11T12:27:00.001+08:00

CG at Ms kau house ytd was good:) The Lord's presence is so strong in our midst!

I don't want to look at myself. haha of all my flaws, inadequacies, the amount of fats in my body and all! I thank God for just showing me that it's all not abt me, but it is all abt him! I thought I fully grasp what this mean but I realised I don't fully comprehend what it really means. I'm learning. haha well, I still do struggle. Feeling rather lousy when people seems to be better than me. I don't like that feeling! This is when "Humility" comes in:)

I am thankful that God never abandons me. He teaches me all the time to be humble:)

I remembered one verse that Ms kau once shared with me

" He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
And to walk humbly with your God. " - Micah 6:8

I want to learn to walk humbly with God:) Do pray for me if you're reading this! haha

Jesus you are my Lord
Jesus you are my everything
Jesus you are my Lord
You are all to me

Jesus you are my God
Jesus you are my everything
Jesus you are my God
I give you my all

I will worship you
I will lift you up
And I will sing to you
Of your majesty

I Love Jesus!:D

None but Jesus

2007-09-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Today's Church! The sermon is really good! And cell too:) Cause the Lord is there to speak through my heart.

Two things that I learnt from sermon:

1.Rowing boat - Using all your might to get it moving
Sailing boat - Catching the wind(Holy spirit) and moved!

I have to depend on God in his Supernatural power and moved! Not by my own strength, not relying on myself but God. I realised there are many things which I think I can work it out myself and don't need God! But I realised that I have to depend on God for ALL things:D hah

2. Actually there are FOUR VOICES!

Devil's voice - Disguised, sugar coated, seems logical
Other people's voice - Good and bad! God can speak through ppl, Devil can too!
My own voice - Fear, discouragement, comparing, accused
God's voice:D

I need to be tune to God's voice! I have been listening to other voices:/ I need to constantly keep myself connected with God! The TIME IS NOW! "Be still and hear his voice" cause God is constantly speaking, and I want to hear him talk to me:)

And I wrote this while the pastor gave an example:

I heard what God says to me (to accomplish something)
And though things came so overwhelming upon me
Many things happened!
Crashing down!
Pulling me down!
Discouragements!
Things going the other way!
ALL things happened!
It is SO EASY to give up!
BUT because
I HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD! (I CONTINUE!)

I was encouraged! And learned that through times of trials in my Life. I will still remember what God has spoke to me and choose to persevere on and not give up so easily:)

And adding on, Miss kau's word is from the Lord too! That above all these above that I'm going to learn. The most important thing that only matters is "Don't forsake my first love (Jesus)" That I don't want to be like a robot which works without feeling but I want to be back in the first place where God is so so close to me! I miss God so much! The times when we are so close to each other, it seems like everything around does not matter to me at all.

God, draw me close to you
Never let me go
I'm laying all, down again
To hear you say that
I'm your Friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause nothing else could take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace

Help me find the way
Bring me back to you (back to your arms, Lord)

You're all I want
You're all I ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know you are near

Movies & Thinking

2007-08-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

Had a great and fun day today!:D HAIRSPRAY! It's a really nice musical show that's worth to watch! And the Retro dance were awesome:) And I really am tempted and also having the urge to dance to the beat with them all! hahah I don't mind watching it all over again:)

Next, Rush hour 3. It's a really trilling and funny show, especially the NG part! I was like laughing my lungs out! :/ But to me, I still love hairspray! Well, cause I love the groove and steps that they bring out. Well, maybe I will try figuring out the steps!

Oh ya, Kaiping, Lycia and Juntian came over to Boonlay! As we're going to watch movies:) They met early but didn't come to my house early. haha cause they were so good to go and buy the movie tickets:) Thanks All! They came over to my house to slack! but it was fun! Playing games, talking and just love the time spend!:D We'll have more ya:)

Hmm serious things now, I'm thinking whether to go back to church dance:) God, show me what you want me to do. As I do struggle too with some things, well God teach and help me to overcome! It's my heart you see and may this heart be a true worshipper that you're seeking after.

Sensitive nose!

2007-08-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

Oh! I bought a converse T shirt for my brother:) As this coming monday is his birthday, but family and friends will be celebrating for him this sunday! yup and I just feel so excited on sunday! lol

And I guess, everyone knows that I have a sensitive nose, REAL SENSITIVE! Whenever I'm in contact with just a little little dust/dirt/strong smell (like perfume etc), I will SNEEZE! And not only that, there comes my running nose. IT WONT STOP! It's rather irritating when you gets that. I'm already quite frustrated cause I had , I have been sneezing since this morning till now! Feel so uncomfortable! hahahha

BUT

I'm happy! you know why? Cause I just realized that my mum has the same thing as me! lol and I feel so heart warming because we share the same "thing", going through the same "thing"! haha well, it don't sound right somehow loving this matter. It isn't a great thing to talk about and love it. And I didn't say that I like it but at least there's one out there sharing this burden with:) hah! I don't know whether anyone could understand this but I do!

God, thank you so much for everything!
Indeed, "He makes all things beautiful, in His Time!"

Back Here & Back Home

2007-08-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

I'm back to keep this blog ALIVE! hah joycelyn I'm back here! So i pronounced it to be revived from the dead:) Well, I guess I'm sort of lazy to update and post! :/ lol please pardon me! ha

I've moved back to stay with my Mum:) At first kind of reluctant and scared of moving back. haha but Thank God! It has been good! I'm serious ya. And I love my room too, i don't know why either though it isn't very BIG but to me, it's cosy:D And my relationship with my mum is good too! And miraculously, with my brothers too! :D Isn't that awesome? hahahaa

oh today! My mum ask me to jurong point to look at the shirt that she likes. The "coca-cola" brand shirt from baleno. She bought one for me:) haha then I helped my mum to get number from polyclinic as she needs to go and fetch my brother. And waited for quite some time as it is lunch time. Well I felt happy cause I've done something for my mum:)

Now seems to be having this trend in gb of "tau poking" people all around! lol:/ but it looks kind of fun but also horrendous! When it is done by our dear kaiping and lycia. They both are good at it! ha and of course not forgetting abt kaiping's biting! That's terrifying! haha well, it's fun looking at them playing and all:D

Hols! Hols! hah bored.

Birthday Weekend:D

2007-07-23T11:57:00.000+08:00

OH! It has been quite some time since I updated my post! hahaha I bet all of you guys miss me! hah! :D

Well, I'm in school now, having fever:( But I want to thank God for such a SWEET friend, Joycelyn Oh Yee Lu! haha who is so kind to help me bring panadole and a bottle of plain water from her house. LOVES! And Thanks for being so Thoughtful! :D

God is really amazing in his work, when he say "GO", then you GO, guess what? He helps me speak and he put words into my mouth! Though at times I felt really fearful and not eloquent to speak. hah! Oh and I want to THANK MY SPIRITUAL FAMILY and GB GIRLS! For celebrating my birthday for me on Sat and Sun and putting an "AWESOME" act huh? haha I was like crying, laughing, getting angry, frustrated, worried and anxious. You all touched with ALL my emotions! LOL and you guys are really good at acting!

Lycia - Thanks buddy for making this birthday, a MEMORABLE one! hah and making the effort to collect money to buy my present and giving me surprises and all! Thanks buddy! LOVES! It couldn't have happened without YOU! :D Thanks for everything!

Mummy Kau - Thanks for the lovely flower and cake, and being there to celebrate my Birthday with me! haha :D

Jordan - Heyhey, thanks for making that CARD for me! Really love it very much! hah:) And of course your sweet smile made my day!

Kaiping - Wow! That CUTE BABY TAZ! I LOVE THAT! thanks for that! And also celebrating my birthday with me! heh! :D

Jun Tian - Hey you! Thanks for the VERY NICE CARD that you've given me! haha and the GRACE bean, hah! I will help it grow as tall as a TREE! oh! lol:D

Dora - Thanks for the skirt! And also my FAVORITE - Fried Onion! hah:D It's really NICE!

Alecia - The BABY TAZ! Thanks Alecia! :D haha and spending time tgt with me!

Reena - For your prayers and SUNSHINE SMILE! :D haha Thanks so MUCH!

Rui Ting - Hey! haha thanks for making the effort down to eat and celebrate with me! hah and be good! and I will be very happy already! Thanks for being sweet to come down! :D

Li Hui - Thanks for the skirt! And coming early to celebrate my birthday with me!

Sheila - Thanks for the skirt and coming to celebrate with me! haha and making the effort to go and shop for my present:D so sweet of you!

Shi Li - SMILE girl! Thanks for the skirt and making the effort to come and celebrate for me! And remember God Loves You! :D

Yvonee - I pray and Bless for the Rojak that you ate ytd! haha and thanks for being there to celebrate with me!

Kelly - oh my dear SISTER! haha I'm really happy and surprised that you came! And the time spend with you is worthwhile! And of course celebrating with me! :D I'm TOUCHED SIS! hah

Yuan Ting - Thanks for the Lovely birthday card! And coming to celebrate my birthday with me! LOL really thoughtful of you! :D

Evangelin - heyhey! Thanks for the present and card! haha and celebrating my birthday with me! hah really sweet ya! :D

Qiu Ting - hey THANKS for the Skirt! And making the effort in collecting the money and all. hah! :D SO SWEET!

Eileen Chew - hey though I might not know you very well, but thanks for celebrating my birthday with me! And your presence there do bring live to us! hah and God Loves You! :D

Jingru, Yanping, Dawn, Xin Yu, Clara, Hui Sien, Yiwen, Zi Qi, Xiuping, Andorria, Jascinta, Sharina - Thanks for the present(Skirt), really LOVE it so much! hah:D

And I guess it's really a long post! And I hope I didn't out anyone out there! And also many who messaged me and wishing me! Thanks to all and I want to let you all know that I LOVE YOU! And it's really an unforgettable birthday! :D I will post up the photos as soon as I can!

Finally! I want to thank GOD for giving me the opportunity to celebrate my birthday with God! My wish is that my walk with the Lord will grow closer and stronger each day! And the Spiritual Family will be build Strong in the Lord:D

I Love God:)

2007-07-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

I'm still happy that I have many of the GB girls which I really love to be with all the time:D I missed so much of my secondary school Life in GM. So so much...

I still remember when I'm in secondary 5 which is nearing my O levels. Almost everyday, I will be staying back in school to study with my dear friend Chai Ling! And I had to admit that we were talking most of the time. hah! We had so much time tgt sharing and studying:) The most impt thing is that I MISS CHAI LING! She's really a great great friend of mine! Always encouraging, never failing support! And many more happenings in secondary school life! haha etc :/

Well, I'm so excited for school tml! And I don't know why but I just want to proclaim that My God is an Awesome God:D He Healed me, Touched me, Love me, and Embrace me! :)

I finally understand the meaning of Life is UNFAIR but God is GOOD ALL THE TIME!

Thank You

2007-07-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

I finally find out the cause of my 5 TIMES diarrhoea this morning! It's the DURIAN that I ate last night and jonathan also had diarrhoea! Went to see a doc just now, and felt much better after eating the medicine:)

The 100K campaign have officially started ytd! I'm really excited about it:D And I pray that God will give me a Right Spirit, a Right Heart to go forth and Bless:)

Just now, something just don't seems to go right. God, may you be my true comforter and the one who truly loves me! That cannot be compared with any other humans around me. Lord, I pray that your holy presence will be with me!

Thank you God for loving me and showing me that I can always RELY on you and TRUST you.

My Strength

2007-07-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

I'm going out to meet my girls real soon! hahaha I'm excited cause I really miss them so much!:D

On wednesday, I could say that the day wasn't a good one for me. Many things just happened so suddenly, I don't believe that it would actually happen on me. haha I was quite hurt and upset too when my friends treated me this way. I should say I didn't expect it ya :(

I still want to give thanks to God, like what yvonee had say, this is another new phase of Life that God is bringing me through! :) I thank God for encouraging me and He says to me that

"I am the Strength of your heart!"

How awesome is my God. And I will not be discouraged but truly know that though I may be alone but God is with me! May God make me, and mould me humbly in Him and others.

Come live in Me
All my Life
Take over
Come breathe in Me
And I will rise on Eagles Wings

There's nothing in Life that can be compared to what God has done for me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHA34jU445E&mode=related&search=

Remembering

2007-07-04T13:04:00.000+08:00

Hey I think I should do some updates! haha well, my friend, Joycelyn wanted to view but I have nothing on my blog :/ LOL

By the way, I'm in geylang east library now! Carrying with a rumbling RUMBLING RUMBLING stomach with me! I guess I'm really hungry! haha just now I took bus 154 from school to my secondary school. And I have to change from bus 154 to 155 at Mcpherson. Mcpherson is the place where I stayed with my dad since young till secondary school. There is sure so much things that i thought of and recalled when I'm waiting for bus 155. And as the bus went one round out from the place, I felt warmth and grieve.

I miss my dad.

Thinking about it, though there are many things that had happened but that's the past alr:) ya and I thank God that I'm still talking to my dad. I remembered that my dad loves me a lot, and whenever someone said bad things about me, he always defense me. haha come to thought of it, it really brings a smile in me. And his always proud of me when I get really good results in school, like primary one and two, I got 4th place in class. He's so happy and went round sharing with my relatives:) Now we don't really talk much like last time.

I miss my mum too!

So much things that she had done for me. She's really a good and caring mother. Though both my parents are divorced, deep in my heart I truly loves them a lot. Sometimes I just don't know how to express it out cause I'm not close to them either. But I know that All parents LOVES their children. Though they always nag and scold you, being busybody asking about who your friends are, where you going, what time you coming back home, etc. All these are out of love.

I begin to look at a bigger picture. Lord, I thank you for my parents:) And may you Bless them in every aspect of their Life too:)

God, our Father loves us dearly too! It is because he LOVES me that he has done so much for my Life too. Bringing and seeing me through all circumstances in my Life. He hears every of my prayers, and his everlasting love and comfort is upon me. Through tough times, he never fails to be there to hold me. Through happy moments, he placed in my heart with resounding joy:D What about you? :D

Remember your parents

Remember God, your Father

Something New:D

2007-06-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

Today was a long day for me in school, every Tuesday I will have lesson from 9am to 6pm. When I woke up this morning, I'm like so tired and had slight headache too. Trying to tell myself that I can't go to school today and I really need to rest at home. I just feel so comfortable lying on the mattress.

A thought came to my mind - Step out of your comfort zone and move into the discomfort zone! It was shared by Pastor Khong on Sunday service. And I'm like tossing around and thought, "Wow, I'm in a really very comfortable position to rest and sleep." But the words really keeps me pondering. FINALLY! I sit up on my mattress and said, "oh, I feel so uncomfortable now. And I think I should go and bath."

haha does it sound a bit hilarious? Well, but to me I thank God that I've overcome the flesh:) I think God is Awesome and his really there for me every moment in my Life! haha I prayed before I went to bath that God, I really need you for this day and also granting me strength to carry on!

And his presence is with me wherever I go today:D He has done something new in me! haha

God is with me!

2007-06-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

Actually today wanted to go back and visit the new school-GM cause it's sort of like the opening ceremony. haha but even before I stepped into the foyer, there I saw yvonee and she asked me whether I want to have breakfast. And thereafter, we decided to slack at her house! Telling the truth, her room has became real cosy! hees:)

Back to matter, a few of us are on a work today.

Went back home, really tired. This was my very first time feeling back aching! I sure am tired. Well, on the way back home, a news sort of make me feel rather upset. It affects me very much, cause it's about me. I came to realise that not everyone likes me.

But I thank God that he let me knows that He Always Loves Me!

I cried but I felt that God just embraces me with his love around me:) He assured me with his Love and his truth that he will never leave nor forsake me.

Here is a trustworthy saying:

If we died with him, we will also live with him;

if we endure, we will also reign with him.

If we disown him, he will also disown us;

if we are faithless, he will remain faithful,

for he cannot disown himself. - 2 Timothy 11-13

The Lord Brings Peace

2007-06-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

Well, today was a day where some of us gather together as a family to go east coast to celebrate Stephanie's birthday:)

It pains my heart today. Actually, I was full of excitement and joy to have fun! And I didn't expect myself to feel just like a prickly feeling. Though I was feeling rather upset but I thank God for bringing peace upon my heart. I was not disturbed within but know that God has his plans and ways:) That In His Time, all things will bring to completion for the good.Though it seems like hopeless, I will still pray that God is in control in the situation.

Are you facing with a situation/someone that you find it hard to change or salvage in your Life?

Know that God is in control over every situation and every person, and Don't give up cause something good is going to happen:) God grant me patience.

Excited

2007-06-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

Heyhey! This is my new blog, that means to say I'm entering into a new phase of Life. haha i'm really excited! The Lord has once again filled my heart with his Joy. And I pray that it will not stop here! haha I've always been really negative, depressed and all but I'm going to learn to be positive, cheerful and let the Joy of the Lord always be my Strength!

Just like the picture above, the hands belongs to God and I am the clay. It is going to be a long process of moulding but I pray that God will hold me in his hands:) And mould me into someone he wants me to be:)